Reflection much overdue

I have been back from La Paz for almost 3 months. There has been much going through my head since my return. I have finally pinpointed the reason for my affection to developing countries. It comes from the deep desire to be recognized as an Indian citizen. I am proud to be an American citizen, not to put down the States, but I think if I was born in the country, people would much better understand my connection with India. I always get blamed to be too "American", "Western", "lucky", etc. and I think this is where things get difficult to explain to others, especially Indians. Although, actions need to be taken not to prove oneself, but because they are needed. India definitely needs help. Hence, it does not matter what they think, right? Well, I am sure this is not the end of it and when I try to open my own NGO in India for some public health reason, much necessary, then it will definitely meet resistance from those Indians that think I cannot approach India since I am not a citizen and thus, not a native "thinker". I hope to be an exception to this. Another reason for my affection to developing countries, is the relationship all developing countries have, and that is with the struggle for freedom. Each, individual, country had the opportunity to be rich, if not richer, than those countries that invaded the region and caused natives to lose their treasures. We see this in Brazil, Bolivia, India, Africa and many other countries. But as a result of these invasions, there is progress and development in those countries. However, as I reflect, I realize, even despite the progress and development, enough has been stolen that nothing appears to be sustainable. This is where the conflict arises.