Sometimes we find ourselves lost. At a crossroads. We do not know what to do. I have always been a go-getter and for some reason that attitude is now forcibly changing because it seems as if certain things are not in my control. I do not believe in fate. It is hard to believe in fate when you think/thought you have the capacity of reaching your goals and addressing your ambitions independently and as a person. I have lost my path and now need to regain my momentum. I have been searching and searching for an epiphany and something to turn on my inner light switch. Unfortunately, it has not happened.
What I do believe in, however, is patience. I think many people lose that quality because they get so caught into their daily, routine life that patience does not seem to be the commonplace. However, when one is patient, one does expect it to be over soon. I am at that place. I am going to lose patience soon. I am not the same person anymore. Sometimes, I feel like as I am getting older, I am transforming. It should be that way. You should be constantly learning, understanding and changing to become a better human being. But, what if you are constantly facing sad realities of life? What if no one is there to be the person you are for them? Social isolation is the number one killer in my book. I believe people are so afraid to be alone that they make stupid, silly mistakes. I think this is what contributes to people being hostile, reactive and angry. How can I resolve this? How can we help people feel like the world is not against them? How can I understand that some things are not in my control, to remain patient and make positive those things that appear negative? Sometimes, we are at a crossroads and it is up to us to find the right path and gain momentum. Sometimes, you have to rise even though that fall can be so deep that it seems hardly imaginable to get up, but you have to rise. Sometimes, you just have to.
